What sucks about pain? Well, that it sucks, and hurts like hell. What's super about pain? Well, the stupid emotion is, maybe, an essential ingredient in the recipe of a great rockstar. Just finished writing my second song, courtesy the frustration, angst, shame, helplessness etc I'm feeling.
Once upon a time, not so long ago, a certain Kurt Cobain was disillusioned. And he made it known through his music. And even though he passed away at just 26, he still—oh you bet—rules. You know you're famous when cheap T-shirts with your face on them are ubiquitous.
OK, God, I know I asked you to make me a great rockstar but let's not do it this way. Pain hurts. The world has had many rage-ridden, drug-driven rockstars. How about a love-bitten, pranayam-doing one? (Prayanam I do, let cupid shoot me.)
However, to be honest, I'm mighty proud of the pathetic song I've just completed. "Pathetic" is not the value judgment of the song but the theme of it. It's about a distraught, love-starved wretch who's suddenly ashamed and embarrassed for many minor reasons other cannot fathom. Why, it may even fetch us a Grammy.
A friend of mine recently told me that Ranbir Kapoor's upcoming movie "Rockstar" is somewhat like my story. In the movie, Ranbir's character gets disappointed in love and then voices his pain through his songs. For the record, I don't like Ranbir even a bit but I'm eager to watch the movie, regardless of whether I have company or not.
And pain? Bring it on. I'll write a song about it. Ha! I have crawled back from abyss. Least afraid of anything now. Yeah it hurts when misunderstanding ruins a friendship but I can't do much when I'm helpless, other than writing a song.
Talking of helplessness, it's like how an itchy dog with a severed hind leg must be feeling. Talking of helplessness, it's like उल्टी आ रही है और कर भी नहीं सकते| I wish I knew the un-yucky ways of describing it. Never mind, rockstar. Got something to say but can't/won't say? Don't say, sing it! Write it in a song and let the world know what you couldn't let the person know. Rock the world, boy!
“Baby I need you, like a poet needs the pain...” — Bon Jovi in In These Arms